Day 8 - A song to match your mood
FUCK YOU.
Well lemme start off with a rant. I know, it's boring and it might be vulgaric so if you don't wanna read it please skip off to somewhere please.
You. Are you my family? Haha, sadly yes. I kind of hate being in this family despite many happy reasons I have. You act like you fucking own the whole damn house. Sure, you pay all the bills and shit but I don't see what's the big deal in it. It's just monetary problems. Your fucking temper ruins everything as well. Nice this minute, fucked up a minute later. I'm getting tired of your mood swings I'm starting to think you are bipolar. If you are, PLEASE FUCKING LEAVE. No one in this family actually likes you as a matter of fact. I mean what we only rely on you is for allowance and the payment of our school fees. I've made plans too. On my own future. Now I'm old enough I'm able to think more better and maturely than before, I've decided on overseas as my goal. Anything. Anything just to get away from you because you're irritating and annoying as fuck. Since that "act of defiance" from me that time you started to be critical with me. As if it'll work anymore. I'm 17 for fuck's sake. I know I have school on which days and when I don't. Just because I'm a girl doesn't mean I can't think properly or control myself. Occasional lost of control is perfectly normal for someone at my age. I'm a freaking teenager, not a freaking child. Please give me the due respect that I need. Also. Not all things must be said to you. Some things that I don't tell you might be because 1) It's not important. 2) It's easier said to a female. 3) I'd like to keep it to myself. I don't neccessary need to tell you everything. I'm not a subordinate of yours. I'm your daughter if you still fucking remember. Don't forget this too: I remember every single shit you did to me. Bad or good. Sad to say, most of the things I remembered of you are bad because 1) You weren't there for me almost half my childhood. 2) You have a foul temper. 3) You inflicted both physical and mental hurt on my siblings and I; which I WILL NEVER FORGET IT. Women remembers and bear grudges. Karma will strike back. Whatever shit you're doing to us now will be done back to you when you grow old. Trust me, when I say not all of us will be at your funeral, I mean it.
Alright. So here's an update on my current life.
School: Ngee Ann Polytechnic, School of Humanities and Social Science (HMS)
Year: 1, 2013
Class: T02 (21 of us)
Course: Early Childhood Education
CCA: (Not confirmed but applied for) Bowling, Debating Club, H.O.T [HMS Outreach Team)
Attachment centre: Raffles Early Learning Centre
I met some new friends, in my class of course. First person I talked to was Celine. Her first impression from me was this: PRETTY. Haha. She turned out to be rather crazy and for the next few weeks up to now we're quite close now. In these weeks since school started, I met a few more crazy friends. Ruhayu is one of the few and Celine, ruru (Her nickname) and I are like a mini group, creating scandals for the class and we have honestly many sick conversations HAHA.
Me: Dirty
Ruru: Kinky
Celine: Dirty-Kinky
The end result after having so much in common and having fun talking to each other. After a while, just recently Clinton was added into the group. So it's:
Me: Dirty
Ruru: Kinky
Celine: Dirty-Kinky
Clinton: Pedo
Haha, I go to school everyday and they never fail to make me laugh. I always come back from school almost hyper/crazy because there will always be that few people who have some hilarious happenings that eventually became the joke of the day.
Let's not forget my friends I've known for 4 years and 2 years. Lynson, Jeanette, Natasha & Covey. Khairudin, Edwin & Alvin too of course. But Edwin maybe...10 years already. Hmmm. Anyway I guess I hang out more with Lynson, Jeanette, Khairudin more than the others recently. Really sorry because I've neglected you guys. Please let's hang out more together, this effort must be made by us to sustain this friendship. Let's not let the recent events affect this though some may be strained k guys. Love you guys la <3 br="">